Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
During my primary school days, I was to become a doctor whenever somebody asked me what was it that I wanted to become when I grow up. Very little idea had I those days about what it takes to become a doctor. During the high school days, my so called ambition of becoming a doctor made more sense when I saw myself interested more towards the science subjects. My dreams seemed more realistic when I happily qualified for science stream for my higher secondary degree. Even more enthusiastic I found it when biology was my preference over math. I almost reached where I always wanted to be, when suddenly I could not qualify for the MBBS scholarship offered by RGoB. Now, who wouldn’t call that was a big fall?
Becoming an engineer had never crossed my mind and I didn’t want to do an engineering course either. So, with not so great heart I accepted the physics bachelor course offered to me. Not that I didn’t like the course but you know how it is, to lose the career of your choice.
It wasn’t long before I realized this career would suit me the best. One year of my course and I knew I would have regretted not knowing the world of physics and the tension and excitement involved in solving the equations, generating an equation. Wouldn’t I have regretted not knowing the electromagnetic theories? The legacy of Albert Einstein, such as the one, law of relativity holds all the reason to scratch your brain. I know, my knowledge in the field is very very less even to call myself a physics student but then I would know even lesser if not for the course I am doing. I don’t know what it would have been like, along the road not taken but as I know this path I am travelling, I am only glad I am here.
Don’t all of us have something called our first love? Accept or deny, we all know for ourselves that before we meet the man of our destiny we encounter few mismatches. One time, like any other being, I saw myself heartbroken and depressed. Today I know, had it not been for the down siding of my so called first love, I would have never known the man I know now. Not knowing him would have been the biggest regret of my life.
One might read this as one piece of many down fallen stories. Yet I ask what have I lost? and I am glad I don’t have an answer.
Friday, December 4, 2009
People come and go. Reasons are never known why we meet. They never tell why they had to leave. We never ask why they had to go. Sometimes we never want to know why and at times we just never know why. Life is better if it remains a mystry. When one understand the whole plot of anything it sucks the most.
Hearng old songs get you memories, and the memories sweet and bitter whatsoever is nothing more than a pain. Most of the new songs have the same old theme, many times put in different order and words. So better you hear musics sung in a language you dont understand. You hear them sing but you don't really understand what they are singing about. It is so much better. Just feel the music, its like the wind or the love.
Friday, November 27, 2009
her door. She knew not what was going on when suddenly a man forced himself in. Yelden was just 16,
she was frightened, nervous and scared. She didn't know what to do. She was embarrassed to shout for
help. Her uncle was sleeping in the next room. She thought it was an embarrassment to shout and wake
him up. She pleaded the evil to leave her alone. But no he wont, the lust in him had risen so much so
that even the humanity in him chose to run away. That night Yelden was dishonored. Her respect of
being a girl and all her pride was stolen by the evil.
they can make visits at night. At 16 it wasn't her fault to keep shut her mouth of revealing such
incidences to anyone related. She was just too embarrassed to tell anyone about that unfaithful night.
Before much time passed few men had already visited her at night.
friends with her. Every man talked sweet to her until they quench their thirst. At the end of the day no
one was there to hear Yelden's heart. No one has even tried to know her womanly heart. For men she
was just a chance not to miss while to the rest she was an embarrassment to the society.
silver beauty showering her blissful rays down on the earth. The night was quite and everything seemed
simply beautiful. Such was the night that Yelden was taken back to the times of some 10 years ago. She
knew things would have been different if only one such unfaithful night had the fate decided to spare
her mother. She was lost to the days when she was a princess to her caring parents.
yet her mother never lacked love and care for her daughter. Yelden lived a life of princess to this most
lovely couple in their little traditional house, until one such night her mother closed her eyes never to
open again. Then after, her life changed completely, not for good.
dishonored and disrespected by such men whose sisters they want the best out of and whose mothers
they respect the most. Who would ever understand Yelden also has a motherly heart and that she is
also just like any other sister if only she had a brother. She is brought this low not by herself but the
society who has pointed her instead of those men who has in fact taken away all her pride . Such honor
which anyone of us can own but by birth.
hear her then how can any other Yelden ever seek justice. When spoken she gets no sympathy instead
she would be talked the bad and wrong one. Is it she who chose the silence or it is the society that
compelled her not to defend?
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Yes I am going away. Leaving my university soon. Until February next year no university work, yay! How I wish I don't have to carry that suitcase of mine but we cant survive without clothes. I will be needing some changes. By the way not going home. Just moving to some other city here in the same country.
Cant wait to see my friends. Those fun times we had were awesome guys, looking forward to such days once again. Those beach walks I missed the most. As much as I like taking walks in the evening, with friends or alone, I like the ocean. Just a breadth of the ocean drives all my worries away and reminds life is beautiful. Such feeling that you get by just looking at the never ending ocean, I call it touch of paradise. Well it is actually little hard to express the real touch we get. May be such feelings are just meant to feel and to not express.
With all these excitements circulating in my system, I have one reason to feel bad. Feeling sad to leave my friend behind. I know she is going to miss me terribly. Wish I could take her with me but her thesis demands dedication. After all her purpose of being here is not to miss or to miss, feel sad or to go on a trip. In one year of her being here she made only two good friends, me and a guy from Africa. Not meaning me a good one, just good in friendship with her. That guy will soon fly to Africa. So she has all the reason to feel lonely. I know what is to live in such feelings, sucks big time! Older she might be, both by age and education but we share such relation, that of a rare kind.
Ohh.. anyways I still haven't finish the packing work.
I know I have been moving a little fast recently but with each talk I have with you I just want to get more close.
I smile not because I am in love but because to me love is you.
Two years ago when we met, little did I know we would get this far. If surprises are this beautiful than I desire nothing more than few surprises of such kind in life, with each surprise beginning with your name.
So a very happy birthday to my dear boy Kinzang. Success and achievement awaits your coming.
My ever lasting love I gift you with intentions only to make you smile and I desire nothing in return but our togetherness.
Today as it is your special day I just want to let you know, YOU really are SPECIAL..to ME
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Thursday, October 22, 2009
' Oh! few birds singing' I was caught. Gave one more smile to the thought of how beautiful the coming season would be. 'Spring is not a season but a reason to smile' I thought.
The nature was at its best perfection. It toured me to all its hidden charms. After all me and my thoughts were the only guest she had to worry about at that moment, no body was seen. Soon her beauty drove me away to my wonderland.
I kept walking, bent my head to watch my steps. I smiled again to the thoughts of nothing in particular.
I smiled to the words ' do keep smiling always cuz now here is someone who wants to see you smile and happy all the time' which read on my mobile this morning. I bit my lower lip and took a long blink as I breathed yet another fragrance of the nature which made me feel the touch of paradise. ' am I moving too fast, is this even me?' I wondered. ' am I really in love again after such a long break?' I smiled again. Kept smiling to the thoughts of the promises he made. ' did he really mean it when he said I will be by your side for all times to come' I was still smiling! ' am I doubting him?' I breathed hard. ' nope I am not, I can trust him I know' one another smile held. But hey! ' it would not be him or me who might, if ever, fail to keep the promises we made' I took another long breath. ' if the world is unfair by itself..what can I do, or anyone of us can do? May be, now I found my reason for existence' I shook my head a little and curved my smile a little bigger. ' Now all I have to do is to say, I love you too' I decided.
' life is pretty cool and beautiful if we meet the right person, we both wonder don't we?--but seldom in life two such good people get to life together ' oh! How I miss this friend of mine, I took a deeper breath. Friend I may call but this friendship is yet to be redefined. 'hey! what if life is all about chatting with someone whom we like talking to?' I smiled again remembering typing those words on my laptop. 'may be thats small part of life's happiness and a small part of the bigger purpose of mortality' I smiled again not really understanding the meaning it carried, whatever it may be, ah! he is one such person whose words I wont forget all my life. 'Defining his friendship might take many generations' I smiled again.
Well, how much can I write down? Cuz I smiled to many other reasons.
' where is my key?' pressing against the pocket realizing that I already reached home, I was brought back to reality!
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
I waited for so long to fall in love with the true definition. Alas! came the day, now don't even remember which day or which occasion it happened. It sure was a joy, every smile given held the meaning of charm. Mornings begun with smile greeting your thoughts. Days were just a moment lost in the thoughts. All those thoughts where in, me and the guy living a life of eternity love.
The most hurt came when I had to face the fact that the boy who held my definition of love had his purpose for some other me. I, for a long time continued loving that person. I knew that wasn't the love which fate had set for me. Still I chose to do justice to my heart almost feeling against the so called fate. I thought loving someone doesn't anyway create the destination of wining his heart. So loving him without any expectations was what I did. Only I can tell how devastating it was to the little heart.
Life goes on and change inevitable. With passing time I felt the need to open my heart. For that going, I had to let go the lost love, rather unfounded love. The love which was never mine anyways. I let it go so much so that I was left with no emotions. Falling in love became a mile's story. Could not fall in love even when I wanted to. It was all good, for it might have prevented my second tragedy from coming into being.
..and today I have some other reason to smile. Yet another person came by be me to fill my heart with reasons only to smile. Keeps me wondering how some unknown people could leave me this touched. How those talks could bring flavor to my otherwise happy smile. Guys! I tell you this is not love. I wouldn't care to answer if someone asks me ' what is it then, lotey?' all I can say is my purity at heart I can feel.
This person told me, tomorrow I will change my style of laughing and that I would no longer find the same charm in talking to him. I didn't deny the say. This might be a fact, I don't know..i seriously don't know. After all, it is life and change being the only law. But hey! tomorrow would be yet another story. So i care not what tomorrow might hold but today's reason I wont forget for all times yet to come.
Friday, October 16, 2009
The dreams of yesterday are lost and to compensate the loss I am dreaming some new ones, which might take a little time before it come into existence. So that is going to be my future, which we all know is never certain. The best anyone can do is to keep trying and hoping. Thats important.
However, all these are either past which we want to forget, take it as an experience or cherish as a memory or the future which I say is still on its way. So the one we have is this moment. It belongs to no one. Not to anyone, it doesn't even belong to your own past or the future. It is the moment you have, I have.
Bring our thoughts to the present to create a better chance of reaching the goals. Today might be simple, as in the saying 'grasses are always greener on the other side' and you might just want to be in the future where it is created greener on your mind. Today is going to matter when tomorrow comes, for life is but a succession of many todays. When tomorrow comes today's smile is going to count, for happiness is but the collection of our smiles.
PS; by the way this is my today! Doing nothing meaningful haha :D
Sunday, October 11, 2009
I meet my friend in front of the door, she sees my assignment grade and shouts ' ohh my god', as if I murdered her child. She always brags bout getting high distinction during all her college life. What is there to be so much of ' ohh my god ' in my getting B negative. After all I didn't even fail.
Friday, October 9, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
To feel whether the environment surrounding one to be good or bad just depends on one's perception. Depends on whether you want to take in all the possible good views or see only the repulsive ones. Everything that is happening with you, good or bad, is just around you alone. How you want to see, so you see. Many times our knowledge bout the world is limited to/by our perception and interpretation.
It is not the girlfriends leaving their boyfriend for a better one, nor it is the boyfriends cheating on their girl. Let us say it is the human beings doing that.
Therefore its no time to keep blaming some other person for everything that happened and somethings that didn't happen. Its time we make our own fortune. Everyone has equal right to be happy, for there is just one life and we don't want live a sorry life. Do we?
Let us make our loved ones proud of us. Lets do something meaningful to bring smile on our parents face. Our parents must have done so many sacrifices to meet our demands and desires. So do they not deserve a little in return? Paying back is simple. Do something beneficial to oneself and our parents are more than happy. Lets do it for our brother/sister(s) who always wanted their siblings to do better then her colleague's sister. For some, whose elders might have taken the parents role in bringing up their younger ones. Do they all not deserve something in return? And that something is easy to give, as I said, by simply taking our life in the right direction.
In course of making our loved ones happy, one might not realize how much one have already achieved for oneself. This way, one fine day you will have a reason to smile at yourself and that time, feeling proud bout oneself wont be any wrong.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Three days back I wrote a poem dedicated to one of my close friends. Well actually to tell, it wasn't much of a poem. Was just some random lines which came up upon visiting his profile on one of the social networking site. That friend sounded a little stressed in the message he sent to me. So I thought I might cheer him up with that stupid poem of mine.
Haha.. unfortunately, i didn't realize thats gonna piss him off instead. Aww..my poem and also my poor friend, he didn't have the strength to withstand my nonsense. Wasn't intended to annoy him, but yeah somethings always turn out opposite. Lol..i must say poorer me, my poem got busted.
Haha anyway I am wondering, am I so bad at writing poems? it was a bad writing..i accept. My sweet little friend. Aww me and the skills..sigh! Its bad..labsa its cool..haha
I better stop writing poems or else, someday some frineds surely gonna stab me..
And today evening as I was taking a walk, just me alone. Those trees really got something to share. I could feel that winter has already said good bye. The leaves seem to smell more refreshing like never before. I lost there in the glory of nature in the dusk. My thoughts wondered..lost in the fragrance of nature's beauty.
I could feel how fast the time flies. Spring is here, another reminder as to how fast the time passes, with achievements received only half, and my own potential half explored.
I was telling myself that I could have done a lot more than what I did in actual. I realized in due time of procrastinating work I already lost a lot of time and potential.
Well I know this happens not just with me but to everyone. Always our capacity and abilities remain half utilized and to that we regret knowing how much more we could have achieved had we made full use of our intelligence, capability, ability and all the those words you can think of.
Yet, I know this season will pass by us with just the same flaws. Anyway, every season is a season of new hopes and dreams.
Hard work is the only way to success. Without hard work no miracle is going to happen. More importantly, your attitude can get you where you want to be. The foremost quality in one should be having faith in oneself.
Believe in oneself is the cause of enthusiasm, which thereby leads to achievement. When one believe in oneself, every fall opens an opportunity. When one has the believe in oneself, he wouldn't fear even when he knows there is lot to fear.
With this believe one shall be smiling someday ( hopefully..hehe).
Still more, if you are compassionate, have respect to elders, regards to young and understanding to the peers then, you become a real person. Definition for beauty thus sum up!
Saturday, October 3, 2009
As much as they hate to study they enjoyed being in school. Everyday was another day of fun and laughter. They used to laugh over every single talk they shared. Yangchen despite being the youngest knew what was to be done at what time, but she was too innocent or rather carefree to care bout her doings and sayings. Yangki had this weired character, she hardly knew what was going on with herself in the first place. Penjor hardly cared about anything whatsoever the situation was.
They teased, made fun and laughed at each other's jokes and inabilities. Sometimes they argued over topics that hardly contained any importance to the outside world. At times it was fun for Yangki and Yangchen to pretend that they were hurt and angry over something Penjor did or said. All in all, those were the best of days.
Sharing such moments had its own danger side. Yangchen sometimes doubted herself that she was falling in love with Penjor. She revealed in jest sometimes that she liked Penjor. Penjor was careful, he hardly saw any truth in it. He assumed it to be just another prank from the two girls. Yangki too considered it to be Yangchen's one way of teasing Penjor. May be it was just an infatuation. Even Yangki had those strange feeling towards Penjor. Even during the weekends she used to miss Penjor's silly jokes. The word love did not occurr to her mind anyways. May be she was too careful to fall in love. Penjor wondered what was going on with the two girls. He too felt a sense of belongingness with the two girls.
However, the fact 'everything has an end to it' played its role. They finally graduated their high school. As much as their jolly nature, they all were quite bright students. They finished with good grades.
They are now studying in different colleges. Yangki now realized that she had loved Penjor all the way along. She misses the time they had. No fairy tale miracle worked out for her love though she truly felt for Penjor. Penjor now has a girlfriend and he loves her dearly. Yangki has moved on as well. She wouldn't dare let him know bout the feelings she is having although she doubt Penjor might have also had some soft corner for her.
While for Yangchen, despite having told bout her feelings for Penjor in half joke, they didn't hook up together. She too got a boyfriend now.
Penjor on the other side, could not understand the friendship he had shared with the two girls.
Everyone seem to have moved on with life. They are all happy with the present days as well. Still, those good times they always remembered. They make visit at times to those fun days they had shared, bringing nostalgia. They wished sometimes if they could turn back time. Revisiting their gone by days made them understand each other better. They gave more thought to the words they had spoken. They realized, perhaps, there was always some truth when Yangchen said she liked Penjor. Perhaps, there always had been some true feelings for Penjor under Yangki's innocent smile. Perhaps, Penjor too had lost a part of him to the two darlings.
While they are keeping hope to meet someday, they are in touch, separated by oceans and mountains! and when they meet, days are never going to be the same like before
PS; '..when the blue night is over my face..on the dark side of the world in space..when I'm all alone with the stars above..you are the one I love..bla bla..' goes on MLTR on my PC as I write this article.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Resources finish but desires grow. Helping hands are in shortage but needing help ever increase. Giving is always less but expectations undefined. True friends are rare but enemies can be hidden inside our so called friends as well. Needs a favor but lacks in consideration. Jealousy is a common emotion but appreciation hard to generate. False promises are easily given but the commitments almost none.
Fruits on the next branch always seem better. The one whom you love always seem better than the one who loves you dearly. Forgetting that the only person who actually can show you the world would be the one who loves you.
Finally in due time of our search for something beyond reach, we forget to live life. We forget that at the end it would not be the bad days that we will remember but that, it 'will' be the little happy moments which will bring smile on our face as we leave the world. Lets keep in mind that not having enemies is not as important as to have real friends. Absence of bad qualities doesn't really count but the presence of good nature can make a big deference, especially if one has the ability to shine it through the eyes and reflect it on others.
So friends, lets take in the best of every situation. With each mistake made, u become wiser. The worst of days are there to remind us the harsh reality of this very existence, and of course the good times are the one that count. So yeah, stop waiting for the rhyme, who knows might never come. Be all :) and smiles.