Thursday, August 4, 2011

Not just the roses alone


Going got so disheartening and hopelessly tough that now I’m saying, ‘ok life take your share, you have been kind to me till now’. Life has given me more than I even asked for, wondering if I ever appreciated.  How could I have had any complain those days? If ever I had


Diagnosed with tinnitus recently and I am so damn down at the moment. Guess what? My doctor suggested me a very comforting treatment, ‘your brain will get used to it, after sometime your brain will adapt to the ringing noise’. But he says, because mine has just started there is still high hope that this might go away on its own. Ok, there is another hope; once my ear infection is cured, this thing might go away as well.

How many of us want to be successful, have the best of everything, best looking and on the top always? Give it a rest my dear friends, you have all the reasons to be happy in life as it is. Even though my parents didn’t have lots of money, God has always been kind to me. Opportunities came up without even trying. Many times life surprised me with fortunate happenings. Still, if something didn’t go my way, I used to get angry, annoyed and impatient.  Exam days stressed me out whilst doing last minute preparation. Couldn’t take failures, hatred, rumours or jealously. Now when I compare, those pains seem so very minimum.

There is something in life which is above everything; above success, achievement and wealth. That something is NOT being sick. So my folks, you have a reason to smile and be happy. Oh! It damn sucks to be me at the moment. Want to go to a place where there is no one and shout so loudly. Can’t bother being decent with my language either. But hey, I am thankful to all those good stuff you gave.  I am hopeful that I’ll be ok soon. Trying and pretending to be happy, mostly by engaging myself in doing something. But the truth is, this isn’t working and I am so miserable.

It sucks more so being away from home. Cannot even tell my parents that I’m sick, there is nothing they can do. Telling them would only mean making them miserable unnecessarily. How I miss everyone so badly. Then again, someone has always taken care and been with me all this time. Distance doesn’t really matter if you really care for someone; wondering how come to some, distance brings an end to their relation. He makes me feel life isn’t so bad after all, love you millions. Wish I could give you a little happiness as well.

 A friend of mine told,’ this isn’t the worst’. Anyways I asked him, how can this not be the worst? Because for me this is the worst. Well he says, could be in a war or starving in Africa. No choice but to accept the facts of life and keep hoping for a better tomorrow. Life being a gift, the package doesn’t come with just the roses alone.

13 comments:

  1. Lotey, what a sad thing to learn about! It's been a long time since you last updated your blog and now as you come back, you are coming with a sad news. I feel sorry for you. I was close to tears, rally! I know how it feels when even a small illness strikes us. It is sad to know. A touching article. Whenever I have tough times, I too don't favour telling parents as they would be worried and there's no use letting them worry. I would like to pray for you recovery and it's great to know that you have your loved one who cares for you really though you are thousands of miles apart. Yeah, love is wonderful. Stay strong! I have many experiences of feeling so let down and fucked up in life. Yeah, you are right. Life is not a bundle of roses alone; it has its own sinister plans somewhere some time. Hope you recover and get cured very soon. I really feel sorry for you dear. Take care... :( We would be glad to know updates on your condition la. Sorry... Lotey :((

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  2. LOtey........there are no words to write here....i am sorry to hear about this problem....when u mentioned in twitter that you are sick, i never thought that you are actually sick....i would pray to the mighty god for your quick recovery..may well wishes of people and your loved ones give you more strength and courage to be healthy..get well soon dear......

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  3. I don't know you.. still am praying for you but remember 99% of diseases are caused by unhappy mind.

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  4. Dear Lotey,
    Life is always a wavy journey. It has very few joyous and successful days but more on the other end. I would like to wish you a speedy recovery and may brighter days come running towards you soon.
    Take care.

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  5. Oi Aum Lotey! Is this true? I saw your status and thought you might be happy like you always use to be. Sorry to hear about your health. Take care! See you soon!

    With misses and hugs!

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  6. Oh, this is sad to to learn. Wishing you a speedy recovery and when you blog next, I am very much hopeful that, you will blog about your soundness.

    Let Blessings Befall on You from Almighty.
    Take care.

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  7. So sorry to learn abt ur health. As your friend had said "this isn't the worst". I know its easier said than done but sure that everything will turn out fine at the end and will pray for your speedy recovery... take care and leave the rest to Almighty.

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  8. Hi everyone :)) thanks for all the prayers. no matter what, life has to go on.

    Yeeshi, kinzang gi update bay bay embay facebook status.

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  9. Hi Lotey,

    Sorry to hear about ur illness. And my prayers for ur quick recovery. And I bet surely..there would be sunshine soon. But sad to knew that u hve accepted ur defeat so soon. I think u hve bigger heart to take things at broader level. Realization is important in life..and other things follow. Ur friend is right in reminding you the life of Africa, it is not a myth after all is also a reality. I hve full faith that U will be above all such things....Wanna see ur update everytime....

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  10. Hi Lotey

    I don't know what to say. But wish you speedy recovery. Take care. Hugs

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  11. May you regain your original health soon. I wish you immediate recovery and blissful life as before la... stay strong, things will get better.

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  12. thanks anu for the loved hug :)
    and pelza, hope all is well with you guys there and thanks so much for the prayers :))

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