Going got so disheartening and hopelessly tough that now I’m saying, ‘ok life take your share, you have been kind to me till now’. Life has given me more than I even asked for, wondering if I ever appreciated. How could I have had any complain those days? If ever I had
Diagnosed with tinnitus recently and I am so damn down at the moment. Guess what? My doctor suggested me a very comforting treatment, ‘your brain will get used to it, after sometime your brain will adapt to the ringing noise’. But he says, because mine has just started there is still high hope that this might go away on its own. Ok, there is another hope; once my ear infection is cured, this thing might go away as well.
How many of us want to be successful, have the best of everything, best looking and on the top always? Give it a rest my dear friends, you have all the reasons to be happy in life as it is. Even though my parents didn’t have lots of money, God has always been kind to me. Opportunities came up without even trying. Many times life surprised me with fortunate happenings. Still, if something didn’t go my way, I used to get angry, annoyed and impatient. Exam days stressed me out whilst doing last minute preparation. Couldn’t take failures, hatred, rumours or jealously. Now when I compare, those pains seem so very minimum.
There is something in life which is above everything; above success, achievement and wealth. That something is NOT being sick. So my folks, you have a reason to smile and be happy. Oh! It damn sucks to be me at the moment. Want to go to a place where there is no one and shout so loudly. Can’t bother being decent with my language either. But hey, I am thankful to all those good stuff you gave. I am hopeful that I’ll be ok soon. Trying and pretending to be happy, mostly by engaging myself in doing something. But the truth is, this isn’t working and I am so miserable.
It sucks more so being away from home. Cannot even tell my parents that I’m sick, there is nothing they can do. Telling them would only mean making them miserable unnecessarily. How I miss everyone so badly. Then again, someone has always taken care and been with me all this time. Distance doesn’t really matter if you really care for someone; wondering how come to some, distance brings an end to their relation. He makes me feel life isn’t so bad after all, love you millions. Wish I could give you a little happiness as well.
A friend of mine told,’ this isn’t the worst’. Anyways I asked him, how can this not be the worst? Because for me this is the worst. Well he says, could be in a war or starving in Africa. No choice but to accept the facts of life and keep hoping for a better tomorrow. Life being a gift, the package doesn’t come with just the roses alone.